Since I've started my journey at the University of Advancing Technology (UAT), the professors introduce us to the idea of Imposter Syndrome and what it means. For those who don't know, Imposter Syndrome is a very common problem where a person will think they don't deserve a position they are in or that they are not good enough, even if they are more than capable. Specifically, they talked to us about developers feeling this way. This can lead to burnout and to people dropping their goals or dreams. It is a very unfortunate way people lose interest in their own dreams, and for the most part, it really does affect everyone I've met, including myself.
Being a Game Art and Animation major and deciding to making games for a living, I have somehow managed to convince myself that I am not good enough, and that I need to work harder to get to where I need to be. Being a woman in this industry means that I already have to work harder. I'm already hard on myself, and because of Imposter Syndrome I end up beating myself up even more. Being someone how had never touched digital art before coming to UAT, I struggle a lot with my own feelings about where I think I should be compared to where I actually am. Only recently have I started to be proud of what I'm making. My art looks like what I think it should look like, and this has to do with the help of some of my professors.
Some of your greatest accomplishments will come from making a professor proud, hearing the words "great job" from them. Professors at UAT do not skip out on the opportunity to complimenting their students' work. They make sure you know you've done great work. Because of this my confidence has boosted a lot, and I am content with the artwork I'm making and the level I am at. From this, I have managed to excel in a lot of my assignments, and I am more willing to show off what I've creating, knowing my worth as an artist in the gaming industry. I am still learning, but I will always be learning as technology continues to advance. I no longer feel the need to rag on myself because of this and neither should you!
