Greeting all as you may know recently I have been struggling I had some life issues that kinda brought me down to a low point of not being able to focus on school and I started to shut everyone out. My father was in the hospital and I had a recent heartbreak , this affected me heavily, considering when you think you found the right one sometimes it doesn't always turn out to be the right one. My father being in the hospital was very hard especially when I'm down here not being able to do anything about it. I soon felt everything closing in on me including classes homework not being to eat and struggling to get myself out of bed. After awhile depression really started to sink in and everyone I knew told me that this ins't the Jake they knew and that the Jake they knew was happy , outgoing, and involved but at that point I wasn't really listening to anybody but myself and I thought to myself is everything my fault. This feeling I had was similar to my first week here when I had my heart broken during the whole time of starting college and moving down to Arizona all by myself all my friends and family where in Pennsylvania. When I thought I was alone and that I didn't have anybody there I was surprised of all the people that really banded together and helped me I heard from people that I didn't expect its funny in life how sometimes the people that you don't expect to be there for you are the ones that are there the most. I mean I heard from some of my cousins that I have spoken to in years and It felt simply amazing to hear them share same past stories and cheering me own, they also knew when to give me space and let me redesign myself as a person. First if I was going to do this I had to realize that none of this wasn't my fault was a lot harder then I thought especially growing up with my dad he always had me believe that everything that ever happened was my fault. I needed to start learning how some things are out of your control and you can't al
the lowest points in my life and I was able to slow down breathe and redesign, rebuild and reclaim who I was.